I started a Web Site in 1999 when I came back into the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous. Tripod decided to block me a few years ago , so I stopped writing, posting. SO I decided to take the posts I had there and put them here. Plus new ones I found on the net and shares of my own. Take what you need and pass on the rest! Blessings ds♥

Friday, October 2, 2015

The Acid Test ( Daily Reflection )

October 2nd


As we work the first nine Steps, we prepare ourselves for the adventure of a new life. But when we approach Step Ten we commence to put our A.A. way of living to practical use, day-by-day, in fair weather or foul. Then comes the acid test: can we stay sober, keep in emotional balance, and live to good purpose under all conditions? TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 88



I know the Promises are being fulfilled in my life, but I want to maintain and develop them by the daily application of Step Ten. I have learned through this Step that if I am disturbed, there is something wrong with me. The other person may be wrong too, but I can only deal with my feelings. When I am hurt or upset, I have to continually look for the cause in me, and then I have to admit and correct my mistakes. It isn’t easy, but as long as I know I am progressing spiritually, I know that I can mark my effort up as a job well done. I have found that pain is a friend; it lets me know there is something wrong with my emotions, just as a physical pain lets me know there is something wrong with my body. When I take the appropriate action through the Twelve Steps, the pain gradually goes away.


  My thoughts on Reflection
The Steps have given me direction on how to live a good life today, compared to the insane/unmanageable life I lead before. Step 10 helps me with balance in my daily life. At any time during the day if I am feeling anxious, irritable, or discontent, I can stop and review my day and see why I am feeling this way. What a great tool ( Step) to have, as I didn't know to do that before.  My day would just get worse until I exploded at anyone in my path. Also when I retire at night  I ask God if there was anything in  my day I owe amends for, or where I could do better tomorrow. I use to think the reason I felt angry or upset or uneasy was what YOU did to me and I would make sure you knew it!!  Even letting you know how I felt I didn't feel any better, but with Step 10  I get freedom once I take that time to look at why I am feeling the way I am.  It is wonderful to have that choice in my day, to stop look and see and be able to change how I am feeling and make amends if I need to.  I still have those days,  I speak before I think and have to go back to that person and apologize. I am not perfect, and don't want to be, as I would be with my maker then.

So I will keep coming and keep growing and working the Steps in my life.
 


God Bless you all

Thursday, September 10, 2015

Forgiveness


 





Forgiveness is the key to action and freedom.
--Hannah Arendt


Resentments keep us in the past, a past that can never be relived. Resentments keep a stranglehold on our mind. They keep us from appreciating the beauty of a moment. They stop us from hearing the loving voices of friends. We forget that we have a mission to fulfill God's divine plan for our life.

Fortunately, we can shake this hold on us, and our freedom comes when we decide to forgive whatever transgressions are made against us. This decision, with some practice, can become second nature.

Clearly the choice to resent no one is our opportunity to free our mind and heart for the real activities God hopes we'll attend to. Our purpose in this life goes unfulfilled when we're consumed by resentments. Now we have a program of recovery to help us develop a forgiving heart and find the peace and joy that are part of God's will for each of us.

Holding resentments against others hurts me. Forgiveness can make me glad I'm alive today.

Friday, September 4, 2015

RECONSTRUCTION


Yes, there is a long period of reconstruction ahead. . . .
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 83

The reconstruction of my life is the prime goal in my recovery as I avoid taking that first drink, one day at a time. The task is most successfully accomplished by working the Steps of our Fellowship. The spiritual life is not a theory; it works, but I have to live it. Step Two started me on my journey to develop a spiritual life; Step Nine allows me to move into the final phase of the initial Steps which taught me how to live a spiritual life. Without the guidance and strength of a Higher Power, it would be impossible to proceed through the various stages of reconstruction. I realize that God works for me and through me. Proof comes to me when I realize that God did for me what I could not do for myself, by removing that gnawing compulsion to drink. I must continue daily to seek God's guidance. He grants me a daily reprieve and will provide the power I need for reconstruction.
From the book Daily Reflections

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 Donna S alcoholic
 

 Boy did i have trouble with Step 2 which in turn didn't help me with the others steps. Basically i made it harder for myself then it is, as in Step 2 all i was to do was become willing. I said i was but in all actuality i wasn't, i still kept believing i was in control saying i did understand God.. how was it all to work? it wasn't till my life was totally out of control did i finally become willing to believe that there was a Power great then me and from there i was able to start my journey i found even with the smallest of prayers help me and thank you every day i didn't pick up and time went by and i was getting thru the steps4 & 5 i saw how i had a part in these resentments i had i got to see my defects and in 6 & 7 i was able to ask God to take them a beginning of healing, letting go 8 & 9 helped me forgives God was doing for me what i couldn't do for myself this wasn't the first time i did the step work i did them 3 times before this the difference was I was willing to believe that God couldds13099: and would if I let Him i winged it before and didn't allow a God of my understanding to work in an thru me i am so grateful today as my life has changed so much and i continue to trust God and the path i am on i couldn't do this with out the steps , the fellowship and God

 ty God Bless and thanks for reading me  

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Step Three



Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
--Step Three of Alcoholics Anonymous


Let's cut right to the heart of the matter: We get in trouble if we try to run our own lives. Our ego starts to mess things up. We try to control things we can't control. We think we are smarter than we are. We start to think we can run things just fine by ourselves. What's the end product? We end up alone – spiritually and sometimes physically – and in trouble.

What we need to do is let the care of our Higher Power run our life. We can use care as a guide because care is what a Higher Power is all about. When we put care into action, we get healing love as a result. So let's put our egos aside and ask our Higher Power to help us do the next right thing.

Prayer for the Day

Higher Power, I've made a decision. I am yours to do with as You want. I know that You will guide my life with care.

Today's Action

I will write down one way that I can be caring to others and myself today. Acting from care is acting for my Higher Power