He's
making me crazy. I don't understand. Why would someone say they were
going to do one thing, then do something so different from what they
say? He looks so good and talks so good. His promises sound so, so real,
but then everything falls apart. Then about the time I'm ready to blow a
gasket, he calls, charms my socks off, and the whole cycle starts over
again. I walk away, scratching my head and wondering, What's wrong with
me? Did I just imagine this whole thing? Did I overact? I don't get it, I
don't understand.
Maybe it's time for an Al-Anon meeting.
And when we're talking on the phone, I feel like I'm the only one for
him. But then when I see him, I know he's lying to me. I know he's
seeing someone else and standing there looking me right in the eyes and
lying about it. I don't understand why I feel so insane.
Maybe it's time for an Al-Anon meeting.
And then I catch him straight-out lying to me, and I blow up. I just
can't stand that lying stuff, especially when I knew all the time he was
lying to me and he denied it. I put up with it and put up with it and
then finally I can't take it anymore. By the time I blow up, he's
standing there looking calm and serene and I'm acting like an insane
person.
It's not you, It's him. How about that meeting?
Oh yeah. That Al-Anon meeting.
"Step One: Powerless over people, places, and things. My life has become
unmanageable." Take a deep breath. Say it again. Then say it one more
time.
Detach
in love. Disentangle. UN-embroil yourself from other people's insanity
so you can be restored to sanity. It's a value many of us learned the
hard way.
