Step One precedes Step Two
Do
crazy people know they're crazy? Schizophrenics usually say it depends
on how sick they are -- their experience helps me understand why I was
told "The Steps are in order for a reason."
Like all stairs, the Twelve Steps start at the bottom.
No
matter how the bottom comes, I must admit that my life has become
unmanageable before I can realistically expect to fix it. I need at
least that little window into my own craziness.
We
get here different ways. Some of us experience a "moment of clarity."
Sometimes a loved one or a group of loved ones finally convinces us.
Sometimes we just stumble into a situation that gobsmacks us (like the
civilian who goes to a meeting just as a friend and hears his own
story).
However my journey starts, I have to
understand the line between sanity and the other thing, and to
understand which side I'm on.
After years of
denial, getting some clarity about my craziness seemed such a startling
insight that I wanted to apply it everywhere! I wanted to enlighten
every codependent and every alcoholic, addict, or otherwise sick person I
knew, met, or even heard about.
They were sick and they needed to admit it.
Talk about crazy!
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