As I reflect back on the past year I can see the progress I have made and
the gratitude I have for this wonderful program and all the "special people" I have met.
On Jan.12 I put down the drink and drug. But I did not surrender to this disease till Jan. 30.1999.
Thats when I came back to the rooms of A.A. to learn how to live life on lifes terms and to work on me.
I was unemployed when I came back( I thank God today ) So I went to alot of meetings. I did a 90&90, got a sponcer and started to work steps.
I had so much fear when I walked back in that first day, a year ago
But that was the first step .I went in sat down and raised my hand found some
words and in a shaking stuttering voice admitted I was an alcoholic.
That I was just coming back after a 5 year run ( i think it was that long, time still is fuzzy)
FEAR was so overwhelming and I wanted to stay inside behind closed doors. I was depressed. Was afraid to be alone with me. So when I was not at a meeting my son (Kris 15 ) found a FOBW chat room on the Internet .Thank God! When not at a meeting I spent hours, days in chat. Learning about people and seeing I was not so unique. There were others all over the world who felt like me, who suffered as I did. It was easier for me to open myself up in this chat room. I found a couple : "Special People" who had what I wanted and I stuck with them . I took the suggestions they offered me, started reading the Big Book.( it is one of my favorite books today) ...listened and became teachable I think for the first time in my life.
My fears are not so great today. I have worked on a 4th and 5th step. I am involved in my home group. Attend as many meetings my health allows me to.Talk to others more openly, freely today. ( my sponcer says I never stop talkin now )I am happy inside where I never thought possible. Not that my life has gotten easier..or my health better.. but.... I have grown inside,, found some peace with me, I ask my HP for help and put my Will in the hands of Gods today. I thank God every morning and night for another day.
I am very Grateful today that I was giving another chance at Life. I found in this past year ..".emotions."... I never felt them..allowed them to show. Today I can cry for joy and sadness. I can hug people today and be hugged. I have learned how to smile inside...now that's what I call progress for this gal .
I have a lot of work still to do..but ..I,m not that same frightened insecure person I was a year ago..thanks to A.A and the "special people " I have met." One Day At A Time.."
DS 2000 - 1/30/99
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Sandy and I are real proud of what you have done and what you have accomplished in this year You can be very proud of yourself and our wishes are for your continued success in recovery ONE DAY AT A TIME WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God's Blessings be with you and your family Love Sandy and Al
ON YOUR AA BIRTHDAYI HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS DAYMAY GOD BLESS YOUFROM VA P.S. HELLIN FELLOWSHIP BILLYLO DEAR FRIEND THAT IS WHAT I TYPE TO ONE & ALLEVERY DAY I COME TO THIS SITE AND GIVE CONGRATS TO ONE &ALLDAY IT GIVES ME PLEASURE TYPING TO A TRUSTED FRIEND I AM SO PBUT TOROUD OF DOING THIS YOU ARE A FRIENDOU DID IT :) BILLY (wfl)JUST LIKE GARY BE WELL BE PROUDY
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How's it feel to be a miracle?
Congrats Donna. Keep coming back. Sam (mas52)
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Congratulations on your 1st AA anniversary !!!!
Tom Connally in Troy, NY
{Walk softly and carry a Big Book} "Acceptance is not submission; it is acknowledgment of the facts of a
situation. Then deciding what you're going to do about it."
-- Kathleen Casey Theisen
CONGRATULATIONS ON 365 DAYS. HOW DID YOU DO IT? ROB F HUNTINGTON, IN
GREAT JOB, LIVING, ONE DAY AT A TIME.ROB F. HUNTINGTON, IN.A great story from the first edition of the big book. Not included inget over to an occasional man who may be in my position. Partner in one of this country's nationalthe current edition. A DIFFERENT SLANT I probably have one of the shortest stories in this whole volume and it is short because there is only one point I wish to only know concerns, happily married with fine children, sufficient income to indulge my whims and future security from the financial standpoint should paint a picture in which there would be no possibility of a man becoming an alcoholic from the psychological standpoint. I had nothing to escape from and I am known as a conservative, sound business man. I had missed going to my office several times while I tapered off andmous and asked if I wanted one of them to call upon me. I was surebrought myself to sobriety. This time, though, I found I could not taper off, I could not stop and I had to be hospitalized. That was the greatest shock to my pride I ever had. Such a blow that I made a firm resolve to never again taste as much as one glass of beer. Careful thought and analysis went into that decision. The doctor at this hospital told me vaguely of the work of men who called themselves Alcoholics Anon y I needed no outside help, but in order to be polite to the doctor and hoping he would forget it, I assented. I was embarrassed when a chap called at my house one evening and told me about himself. He quickly sensed my slight resentment and made it plain to me that none of the crowd were missionaries, nor did they feel it their duty to try to help anyone who did not want help. I think I closed the talk by saying I was glad I was not an alcoholic and sorry he had been bothered by me.Within sixty days, after leaving the hospital the second time, I was pounding at his door, willing to do anything to conquer the vicious thing that had conquered me. The point I hope I have made is - even a man with everything from a material standpoint, a man with tremendous pride and the will power to function in all ordinary circumstances can become an alcoholic and find himself as hopeless and helpless as the man who has a multitude of worries and troubles. --Harry B.First Edition of Big Book pages 252-253.
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